30 Day Mental Cleanse

As per my Mentors' advice- I am doing a 30 day mental cleanse.

I've only listened to a few minutes of the audio from Think and Grow Rich: Chapter Persistence.

The first thing I realized was that I am very persistent. I want a peaceful life- not bragging rights. I'm not after fame or glory or riches- I'm after FREEDOM.

The second thing I did was try to talk to Jono again just one more time.

We walked back and forth in the parking lot for hours. I kept having swells of rejection and pain but I remembered: Persistence. This talk was not about my feelings of divorce- it was about helping Jono find himself.

I will always want the absolute best for others. So I re-focused every time. For every pain I was feeling... I knew he was feeling more.

Set aside the emotions and seek the unmet needs.

A few more hours of talking. And slowly it was beginning to make sense. He really was trying to meet a healthy need in an unhealthy way. Everything fit- I was no longer in pain.

The next day I had him tell me what I had done in the 2 1/2 years we were married. It wound up going on for hours. Him talking and me revisiting the past 3 years.

That conversation changed both of us. I saw just how strong and beautiful I am. Having dealt with major life traumas in an efficient manner even though I had never been guided.

For Jono he said he was able to see past his own pain and begin to see the real me. A determined, striving woman.

While I don't know if our tale will begin again, I do know that I learned a great lesson this week.

My pain is eased by easing the pain of others. ^_^