I've come back, now what?

If you love someone let them go, if they come back it's real. Well it is real this time for me. As I read through these journals/posts I see that they are really just workbooks for me. A way for me to identify and work through my lessons in life. So each day I should get on here and work through a lesson. Today I have identified in more detail that I am holding myself back afraid that my mother will disapprove. Which is silly because she'll always disapprove of everything do. "You know I always support you, just be realistic that you're going to fail." Her pessimism. So what is MY approach? $0 to 6 figures in 6 months by Peter Voogd He says Absolute Clarity. So here it goes. Within 6 months what do I want to make happen? - Jono out of my life is every possible way. (Dissolve LLC, No Contact Agreement, Voluntarily giving up parental rights, give him back the phone) - Ownership of at least 1 apartment complex. (Cover my monthly bills so that I am not having to work a job.) - Purchase of a house outside of NC or CO. - Bring my kids home. Exactly what I want and in exactly that order. And he says Clarity is the ultimate power. Get rid of the messes and noise in your head and figure out who you are. These blogs are my way of clearing out the noise in my head. I take responsibility for where I am at today. Cutting off Jono lets me take that responsibility and MOVE ON. no longer tied to his next drama. I take responsibility for financially providing for myself. The apartment will cover my expenses. I take responsibility for my housing. No more being homeless, no more D class apartments, I will have a SFH to call my own. I take responsibility for being a mom. My kiddos will be encouraged and provided for their entire lives. He then says 'your confidence account' and explains that without confidence you will always lose. I am reminded of Grant Cardone 'sell or be sold' and I want that book. Because it is true. The person with the most confidence wins. But it has to be confidence, not control or aggression. Why AM I not confident? Seems like a topic that only a long walk can solve.