Moving forward does not mean start anew.

With so many things in my life changing now adays, my thoughts have turned to the numerous times that I have started over again with my life.

With the end of old relationships I never saw that person again. But now with Jono it is different. Not because of our son. Because I really do respect Jono and appreciate his company in short spurts.

I believe it was because I was never shown healthy boundaries in the past that I came up with the False Belief that if I like a guy then I have to be his girlfriend for him to hang out with me. I'm seeing that I don't.

My Ego and Vanity have been fading the longer I am way from my childhood family. It is liberating and frightening at the same time.

So while I am no longer seeking a commitment with Jono, I am seeking a relationship with myself. To learn to trust myself as I start, for the first time, living a life of my creation.

Move forward and trim the dead weight, certainly. Just know that you don't have to start from scratch every time. :->